Crappy foto Friday

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This week has been full. Full of tiredness and lots of wonderful. I had one friend stop by on a night when Garrett was at worship and she folded laundry while I sat and held the baby and then she held the baby while I folded the more embarrassing laundry (Garrett’s undies – he hates it when I call them his undies). I had another friend bless me with a coffee gift card after she read my blog on Tuesday and then the very next day different blessed me with a coffee drink at a play date. Wonderful people fill my life! And many others sent text of prayers and shared laughs and watched my kids while I ran to appointments. Thank you! I can honestly God takes care of me through amazing people he puts in my life and I am thankful.

But this week wouldn’t be coming to an end without some crappy photos I took to document our life.

I took all five to lunch at our favorite chicken joint by myself. We were desperate to get out of the house.

I took all five to lunch at our favorite chicken joint by myself. We were desperate to get out of the house.

We had the whole play place to ourselves and it was heavenly.

We had the whole play place to ourselves and it was heavenly.

Anyone need a spleen???

Anyone need a spleen???

Anyone who says Cedar Rapids is lame did not go to Veritas' outdoor worship. Amazing!

Anyone who says Cedar Rapids is lame did not go to Veritas’ outdoor worship. Amazing!

Words that have gotten me through the yuck this week.

Words that have gotten me through the yuck this week.

#selfie

#selfie

Just one of the many cups of espresso beverages consumed because of the kindness of friends.

Just one of the many cups of espresso-laiden beverages consumed because of the kindness of friends. Seriously cried when thinking about how amazing they are.

I took the kids for a quick errand hoping that at least one of the cranky ones would sleep and she did.

I took the kids for a quick errand hoping that at least one of the cranky ones would sleep and she did.

#fifthchild #relaxed

#fifthchild #relaxed

Rough

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Today has been rough. Real rough.

I am going on 4 hours of non-consecutive sleep. And it sucks. Like real bad. I have consumed a half-pot of coffee before 8am. By myself. My pee smells like coffee and I half expect it to be brown. Yep. And even then, I considered dragging my kids to Starbucks to get espresso.

I am tired. They are tired (that’s what getting up before five in the morning to play will do to little people). I have a little human sucking all the nutrients and energy out of my body 24/7. I have four kids that I am actively trying to teach to like and love one another, to say words kindly, to be selfless instead of selfish, to love Jesus, to live Jesus, to listen to and obey authority (right now this is me and their awesome dad) even when it seems unfair or dumb. Frankly, I suck at it. All of this would go so much better if I did these things well. But I don’t.

That’s why I am thankful for Jesus.

Just when today seemed like it was going to end up in the garbage before it even really had a chance to begin, my kids (the ones that can at least talk) and I sang “Jesus Paid It All” and “Nothing But the Blood” together. And I was reminded AGAIN that this is what joy is. Joy is sitting in the midst of the yuck – as Cooper would say – and remembering what Jesus did…what Jesus does every single moment for me. He says “Karlee you are wiped clean. And this day may suck (Jesus probably doesn’t say the word suck but you get the picture) and you will fail but I have you in my hands and you are washed white as snow, so get up and keep on going because I got this.”

I am still exhausted today and still contemplating making a run to Starbucks after nap but I know that Jesus has this day and me and my little children in His hands and that gives me the joy and strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Because joy does not equal happiness, because joy is so, so, so much better.

 

 

REAL mom Wednesday

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You know you are a REAL mom when…

*You stuff your bra.

Never say never. I totally stuffed my bra with kleenex because I ran out of breast pads. The thing is I remember saying I would never do that and I did. Maybe not for the reasons many girls do but still. And to make matters even more interesting was when I went to feed Nora and was shocked to find kleenex in my bra until I remembered that I DID in fact put it there.