Crappy foto Friday

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I really don’t know where this week went but here are just a couple of the crappy photos I took:-)

Look at those cheeks. They scream well fed!

Look at those cheeks. They scream well fed!

Eden's response to how her first day of real school went:-)

Eden’s response to how her first day of real school went:-)

This poor guy was still smiling even though his pink eye had nearly swollen his eyes shut.

This poor guy was still smiling even though his pink eye had nearly swollen his eyes shut.

In the Hufford house we lick our plates clean...waste not, want not...

In the Hufford house we lick our plates clean…waste not, want not…

Supermom!

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I often get told I am supermom when they find out I have five small little people under my care 24/7.

But the truth is I am not a supermom. Not at all. I don’t do it all. I can’t do it all. And sometimes when I have bit off more than I can chew, my husband has to give me the heimlich maneuver to save me from myself.

Tomorrow is a new chapter in our lives. We are sending our first born into the world. We are sending her to school.

This season of life is nuts and “school time” often got pushed to the wayside in order to get other stuff done. I actually really enjoyed being “teacher” and having dedicated time to sit and fill their minds with cool things. I am not sure I was great at it but I really did enjoy it. But sometimes when your plate gets too full (even of really great things) it is time to make some adjustments. So here we are…sending Eden to school.

Do you want to know what the hardest part about saying this out loud has been? My pride. Yep. My pride. I am admitting that I can’t do it all and that I don’t want to do it all. I don’t need to apologize for our decision to send Eden to school but I do need to apologize for the pride that I had in my heart because I didn’t want it not to work since I would be proving all the homeschool nay-sayers in this world right. But I am not out to impress them or the homeschool moms who make it work (and if you are making it work, GOOD FOR YOU!!! We need to talk! You are my hero!). And as my husband keeps on reminding me (and encouraging me) I don’t have to do it all to be a great mom and sometimes throwing up a yellow flag is what needs to happen.

Anyway, I am so excited for her! She can’t hardly wait to step foot into her classroom. I know she will adjust well and make friends easily. But I will honestly miss her.

I like all my kids. Seriously. Even on those days when they break things and draw on stuff and pee on the ground, I genuinely enjoy them. I am not really sad that she is starting kindergarten. I love the little person she is becoming and how much she wants to spend her time learning. I love that she is a friend (sometimes she is a foe) to her brothers and sisters and honestly to anyone she meets. I love that she writes letters to her friends parents and thanks them for letting her play with their kids and to tell them how great their kids are. She is just an awesome little person. And I will miss her. But she will do great!

Eden, never stop growing and learning and loving and just being the amazing little person God has created you to be.

Congratulations!  Today is your day.  You're off to Great Places!  You're off and away!

Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!

 

 

Crappy foto Friday

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This week has been full. Full of tiredness and lots of wonderful. I had one friend stop by on a night when Garrett was at worship and she folded laundry while I sat and held the baby and then she held the baby while I folded the more embarrassing laundry (Garrett’s undies – he hates it when I call them his undies). I had another friend bless me with a coffee gift card after she read my blog on Tuesday and then the very next day different blessed me with a coffee drink at a play date. Wonderful people fill my life! And many others sent text of prayers and shared laughs and watched my kids while I ran to appointments. Thank you! I can honestly God takes care of me through amazing people he puts in my life and I am thankful.

But this week wouldn’t be coming to an end without some crappy photos I took to document our life.

I took all five to lunch at our favorite chicken joint by myself. We were desperate to get out of the house.

I took all five to lunch at our favorite chicken joint by myself. We were desperate to get out of the house.

We had the whole play place to ourselves and it was heavenly.

We had the whole play place to ourselves and it was heavenly.

Anyone need a spleen???

Anyone need a spleen???

Anyone who says Cedar Rapids is lame did not go to Veritas' outdoor worship. Amazing!

Anyone who says Cedar Rapids is lame did not go to Veritas’ outdoor worship. Amazing!

Words that have gotten me through the yuck this week.

Words that have gotten me through the yuck this week.

#selfie

#selfie

Just one of the many cups of espresso beverages consumed because of the kindness of friends.

Just one of the many cups of espresso-laiden beverages consumed because of the kindness of friends. Seriously cried when thinking about how amazing they are.

I took the kids for a quick errand hoping that at least one of the cranky ones would sleep and she did.

I took the kids for a quick errand hoping that at least one of the cranky ones would sleep and she did.

#fifthchild #relaxed

#fifthchild #relaxed

Rough

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Today has been rough. Real rough.

I am going on 4 hours of non-consecutive sleep. And it sucks. Like real bad. I have consumed a half-pot of coffee before 8am. By myself. My pee smells like coffee and I half expect it to be brown. Yep. And even then, I considered dragging my kids to Starbucks to get espresso.

I am tired. They are tired (that’s what getting up before five in the morning to play will do to little people). I have a little human sucking all the nutrients and energy out of my body 24/7. I have four kids that I am actively trying to teach to like and love one another, to say words kindly, to be selfless instead of selfish, to love Jesus, to live Jesus, to listen to and obey authority (right now this is me and their awesome dad) even when it seems unfair or dumb. Frankly, I suck at it. All of this would go so much better if I did these things well. But I don’t.

That’s why I am thankful for Jesus.

Just when today seemed like it was going to end up in the garbage before it even really had a chance to begin, my kids (the ones that can at least talk) and I sang “Jesus Paid It All” and “Nothing But the Blood” together. And I was reminded AGAIN that this is what joy is. Joy is sitting in the midst of the yuck – as Cooper would say – and remembering what Jesus did…what Jesus does every single moment for me. He says “Karlee you are wiped clean. And this day may suck (Jesus probably doesn’t say the word suck but you get the picture) and you will fail but I have you in my hands and you are washed white as snow, so get up and keep on going because I got this.”

I am still exhausted today and still contemplating making a run to Starbucks after nap but I know that Jesus has this day and me and my little children in His hands and that gives me the joy and strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Because joy does not equal happiness, because joy is so, so, so much better.