I often get told I am supermom when they find out I have five small little people under my care 24/7.
But the truth is I am not a supermom. Not at all. I don’t do it all. I can’t do it all. And sometimes when I have bit off more than I can chew, my husband has to give me the heimlich maneuver to save me from myself.
Tomorrow is a new chapter in our lives. We are sending our first born into the world. We are sending her to school.
This season of life is nuts and “school time” often got pushed to the wayside in order to get other stuff done. I actually really enjoyed being “teacher” and having dedicated time to sit and fill their minds with cool things. I am not sure I was great at it but I really did enjoy it. But sometimes when your plate gets too full (even of really great things) it is time to make some adjustments. So here we are…sending Eden to school.
Do you want to know what the hardest part about saying this out loud has been? My pride. Yep. My pride. I am admitting that I can’t do it all and that I don’t want to do it all. I don’t need to apologize for our decision to send Eden to school but I do need to apologize for the pride that I had in my heart because I didn’t want it not to work since I would be proving all the homeschool nay-sayers in this world right. But I am not out to impress them or the homeschool moms who make it work (and if you are making it work, GOOD FOR YOU!!! We need to talk! You are my hero!). And as my husband keeps on reminding me (and encouraging me) I don’t have to do it all to be a great mom and sometimes throwing up a yellow flag is what needs to happen.
Anyway, I am so excited for her! She can’t hardly wait to step foot into her classroom. I know she will adjust well and make friends easily. But I will honestly miss her.
I like all my kids. Seriously. Even on those days when they break things and draw on stuff and pee on the ground, I genuinely enjoy them. I am not really sad that she is starting kindergarten. I love the little person she is becoming and how much she wants to spend her time learning. I love that she is a friend (sometimes she is a foe) to her brothers and sisters and honestly to anyone she meets. I love that she writes letters to her friends parents and thanks them for letting her play with their kids and to tell them how great their kids are. She is just an awesome little person. And I will miss her. But she will do great!
Eden, never stop growing and learning and loving and just being the amazing little person God has created you to be.