Long, long ago God made a decision –
a very important decision…
one that I’m really glad He made.
He made the decision to make you.
This pregnancy has been a roller coaster ride starting from the day we learned we were having a son. You see, he was perfect in our eyes, in every single way but the doctors saw some anomalies that couldn’t be ignored. And we knew that God is good…regardless.
The same hands that made the stars made you.
The same hands that made the canyons made you.
The same hands that made the trees and the moon and the sun made you.
That’s why you are so special. God made you.
They told us he had a bum foot, but we still loved him. They told us he had markers for genetic disorders, but we still loved him. They told us we needed to have further high tech ultrasounds done to see what other doctors thought, but we still loved him. And we knew that God is good…regardless.
He made you in a very special way.
He made your eyes so they would twinkle.
He made your mouth so you could smile.
He made your laugh so you could giggle.
God made you like no one else.
We got a fancy ultrasound at a fancy hospital and looked longingly at the perfect boy we had been given. We knew that he was special. We knew that he was ours. We knew that we wanted him because God gave him to us, no matter what was found. And we knew that God is good…regardless.
If you looked all over the world – in every city in every house –
there would be no one else like you…
no one with your eyes,
no one with your mouth,
no one with your laugh.
You are very, very special.
We had an amniocentesis to see what we were going to be dealing with since the doctors said all these anomalies usually don’t just happen for no reason. And then we waited. And we waited. And then the phone rang.
And since you are so special, God wanted to put you in just the right home…
where you would be warm when it’s cold,
where you’d be safe when you’re afraid,
where you’d have fun and learn about heaven.
So, after lots of looking for just the right family, God sent you to me. And I’m so glad He did.*
The genetic counselor told us news we were not expecting – we had prepared ourselves for “something” to come back positive. She told us he was healthy! I remember trying to hold back the tears because we had prayed and prayed and asked others to pray with us as we waited and all those prayers were felt because Garrett and I were at complete peace with whatever happened. And the news was wonderful! And unexpected! And we knew that God is good regardless of whatever happened or happens.
Even though the news so far has been great, we still have to continue making the trek down to the U of I hospital for monitoring. The doctors need to keep an eye on the fluid in his kidneys (he has too much in one and borderline too much in the other) and we will be meeting with the pediatric orthopedist to see about the treatment needed for his clubbed right foot. The other anomalies are just anomalies as far as human testing can tell for now, with no rhyme or reason to them. God has shown His love and care for us through each moment. And we are thankful.
*From the book Just In Case You Ever Wonder by Max Lucado.